Super Easy and Delicious Chocolate Fudge

I love yummy treats. 

I'm seriously addicted to making tasty things...

I found this super easy super yummy recipe for chocolate fudge. 

Seriously anyone can do it and it only takes maybe 10 minutes. I needed to share it with you.

What you will need:

-1 can of sweetened condensed milk

-1 bag of chocolate chips (any kind is fine I used semi sweet)

-1 tsp salt

-1 tsp vanilla extract

Step1~ Grab a baking dish square preferably and line it in foil and set it aside

Step 2~  Grab a small sauce pan and put it on the burner on a medium heat

Step 3~ Pour the chocolate chips, condensed milk, salt and vanilla in the pan and stir until smooth.

Step 4~ When smooth take it off the burner and pour into the prepared baking dish, spread until even and smooth, cover with more foil just over the top and place in the fridge. (It should take about 3 hours to cool.)

Step 5~ When cooled take the dish out of the fridge take the foil cover off. Gently pull on all the sides of the foil until loose. Gently lift the fudge and foil out of the pan. Set on a cutting board, pull the foil down from the sides and cut into squares I usually cut them to be about 1in -1 1/2in in size.

Step 6~ Eat:)   Put the fudge squares into a sealed container and keep in the fridge.

They are good cold or thawed(room temp)

*you can add 2 tablespoons of peanut butter and/or some nuts to the mixture to change it up a bit.

So yummy and so easy. Great for a little sweet snack when you're craving something small. Or great to take to parties or to set out when having people over. 

Give it a try and let me know how it went or if you have any yummy twists to switch it up:)

Yummy yummy:)

jclove

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my hair journey

In 2011 I started changing my hair.

 I am a natural red head and was always teased for being a ginger and at the time I absolutely hated my hair. I always got compliments on my hair from older people and I never understood it. I wanted something different. 

I always got highlights but it was just a tint of a difference. Not enough.

One of my friends at the time had some bleach at her house and we decided to put some on my hair so the bottom half would be blonde and the top half would be red. But of course she didnt know what she was doing and it didnt turn out perfect. it was really spotty and terrible looking.. I decided to go to a hair dresser and pay to have it fixed. When it was finished it looked better but not perfect. there were still red spots in it which I hated. oh well.

A little time goes by and I decided to chop my long hair off (it wasnt too long it was a couple inches below the shoulder) I got a short look that came just below my chin and was kind of choppy and pretty cute. But it was such a huge change I started to hate it and miss my old hair:( 

After a couple months it started to get longer and I decided to basically get so many highlights its basically blonde with red highlights. This happened in december of 2011.

Basically every time I needed a retouch id get more blonde and I was all blonde in no time.

Now all of this bleaching is definitely not any good for my hair but I continued to do it and continued to straighten it all the time, never using a heat protectant and killing it slowly.

I got bored with it and decided to put a pink streak in it just in the front like where Christina Perri has her blonde. Mind you my school doesnt allow unnatural colors. But for some reason I didnt think about it or maybe I just didnt care. 

Weirdly no one at school said anything about it. I did get a few comments from teachers saying they liked it but thats it. I think the teachers liked me.

I get bored again and decide I want to go a deep red like Ariana Grande and go to a salon and come out of the salon with a deep brown with a bit of red. The red only showed up when I was in the sun. I was ok with it. 

Now since I started with red hair and now im a brunette my eyebrows dont match and I look like I have no eyebrows. So I go to the salon and get them tinted a deep brown. And they look great.

I kept that for a bit and then got bored again. I think its about march now. by this time my hair has faded and isnt such a strong brown.

I decide I want to dye my hair bright pink. Completely disregarding the rules at school. I go out and grab two boxes of Splat hair color and slap it on. 

I was it out and it AMAZING. It is the perfect pink color. Its a deep pink. Just what I wanted! (I have no pictures which is strange because I was obsessed with taking pictures at the time... strange)

I have bright pink hair and im going to school and work and everything and not one person says anything about how I cant have BRIGHT PINK hair at school. 

After awhile i decided to change it up a lot and i go from a pretty purple brown to a auburn and back. 

Its now september (my hair is shoulder length now, dying and bleaching so much stunts growth and i did get a couple trims) and Im starting cosmetology school at Paul Mitchell. 

I keep my hair for about 2 weeks and I start looking at my old pictures with my long red hair and I compare them to my hair now and I think to myself "what the heck did I do???" so I talk to my teacher and ask her what I can do to get it back to my natural and she kept going on and on about how it was impossible and how id just have to grow it out.

I was not happy with this answer at all.. 

So I decided to figure it out myself.

I go to walgreens and get a box called L'Oreal hair color remover. I slap it on and rinse it out. 

mind you it takes awhile and smells terrible. I tried splat's color oops before aswell. Both work pretty well. 

I do this twice because once wasnt enough and my hair is back to blonde. Its super fluffy and frizzy because its so damaged. I also grabbed a box of the lightest natural red hair dye I could find it was basically a strawberry blonde color and I slap it on and rinse it out and my hair is basically back to normal!!!!! 

YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!

I felt pretty great and walked into school and just thought "HA look what I did! you said it couldnt be done!"  

By this time my hair was dead. But it was the color I wanted. 

My hair used to be so nice and soft and now it was extremely dry and brittle. 

I decided to never dye it again and grow it out and slowly cut off all the dead and get back to my old self. 

Now its 2014 I'm graduated from school and I have my license. My hair is finally long just reaching the middle of my back. Its pretty and red and basically all the dead is off. I trim my split ends off  myself about every month or so. I am absolutely obsessed with deep conditioners and treatments. always trying something new and keeping my hair healthy.

In the summer of 2013 I decided to try to stop using heat and braided my hair and let it air dry it definitely helped it grow and get back to normal. 

I did all of those things to my hair in a year. I cant even tell you how many times I changed the color because I dont even remember. 

I've gone through a lot of changes in my life.

But my hair change I definitely regretted after awhile.

Learn to love yourself for how you are.

Change can be good.

But dont change too much and lose yourself.

jclove

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My Absolute Favorite Makeup Remover.

Neutrogena Eye Makeup Remover Lotion

I have been using this makeup remover for a couple years now and I absolutely love it.

I have always had trouble finding a makeup remover that I liked until I tried this.

I saw it at Nordstrom Rack and I had to try it. Its pretty reasonably priced.  $6.99 on Neutrogena's site. I havent been able to find it anywhere but Nordstorm Rack so when im there(which isnt often) I have to grab it. I found it online. But I wish I could find it in a store because its a lot quicker to just go pick it up than to have to order it and pay for shipping and wait for it. Im out I need it NOW not in a week! I literally use it every day. 

I wear waterproof makeup because I hate when it runs down my face if I swim, or cry:( or my eyes just water. And I think it lasts longer too..

The only down side is its hard to get off, so you need a good makeup remover. Ive tried tons of different brands and types. I can deal with the makeup remover wipes but they arent my favorite.

I also use Q-tips with remover to touch up my eyeliner if I dont put it on nicely or evenly. 

I absolutely HATE any makeup remover with an oil base. I hate that oily feeling around my eyes and it gets in my eye sometimes and I see blurry for hours.. 

I like that this is a "lotion" instead of an oil because you can control it a lot better AND its moisturizing! Around my eyes my skin is very sensitive and gets irritated easily and also gets pretty dry. This product is very gentile and keeps my skin moisturized. Which I definitely like. :)

You can pop it on a cotton pad and wipe your makeup off or use a Q-tip and fix little details. I do both:)

I love it and I would definitely recommend it to everyone. It is amazing. Does its job and more. 

Go buy it. Now. 

ok..byebye 

jclove

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I think ive found the reason I have gained weight

If you read my other blogs you'd know that I was really skinny 5'7 115 lbs, I was pressured so much and hated on so much and gained weight with birth control  called depo provera. I weighted 156lbs when I decided that was enough. I stopped taking it and lost the weight over time but now my body is really sensitive to weight gain. I used to be able to eat whatever I wanted and be skinny but now I gain weight... It might just be because I'm older now. But idk.
But now I'm struggling with my weight a little bit, I'm at about 126lbs and have fat around my body I wish wasn't there.
I have been thinking about what I am doing differently than I did before when I was younger and skinnier and I thought of something crucial.
Before when I wasn't hungry I wouldn't eat. But now if its dinner time and I barely had lunch I force myself to eat. I find I do that a lot. I eat when I'm not hungry. Whether I'm bored or just think I should eat because I haven't in awhile. If I'm not hungry I shouldn't eat.
Hunger is your body telling you it needs to eat. If its not hungry dont eat. Right?
That's one thing I need to work on. And I think I'll see a change.
jclove
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This drives me crazy.

This drives me absolutely crazy.
When you are trying to get a job somewhere and you go through your first interview and you have to come in for a second or maybe for a drug test and they tell you to come at this exact time. And you get there and they are busy doing something else. For an hour.
Seriously?
Do not ask someone to be somewhere if you aren't going to be ready at that time. Its extremely unprofessional and rude.
I know I am a great worker, and at that point I just want to tell them I dont want to work with them. Why would I want to work with a company that is so unprofessional and under terrible management.
It happens so often with me.
I'm happy to go somewhere else and give them my work and experience.
And most of the time they dont even apologize, they just act like nothing happened and you didn't just wait an hour for them.
I had one company (not going to point fingers) that I went in to talk to the manager and told him I applied and asked what hours he was looking for and it fit so he said he'd bring me in for an interview. I went in for my first interview and the manager told me that basically this was just to make sure your available hours matched what they needed and to make sure I was presentable and if I was a fit. So after this was over he said I passed and I fit what they need and to call and get the second interview set up later on. I call and set it up. I go to my second interview and im sat at a table to wait and I wait for the manager for an hour and finally a worker comes up and says oh they are in a meeting for about another hour and a half. (BTW. I can see all of the managers across the room, this is a restaurant, they aren't doing anything important, some are walking around and some are sitting talking. One couldn't come and talk to me himself and apologize and let me know what was going on?) So I said ok, and the worker asked if I wanted to wait an hour and a half or come back another day, and I decided to come the next day, same time.
The next day I go and I wait finally get to speak with a manager but this time it was a woman, and she didn't apologize for the day before or acknowledge it at all. She barely acknowledged me she just asked me my availability and said oh well we aren't looking for anyone for those hours so we'll keep your resume and call you if something comes up in a couple of months.
Are you kidding?!
I was so upset.
This is now the 4th time I have driven here. It takes me 25min one way from my house.
Mind you I was trying to be as kind as I could but I wasn't going to just be treated so disrespectfully.
I told her I was told that that was the only reason for the first interview. To make sure I had the hours they needed. And I passed. And she said well we dont need anyone for those hours.
I told her about how I came in yesterday and I rudely had to wait in hour and I had to come again today for you to just tell me you dont need me? I have never been treated so disrespectfully in my life. And just left. She was rude to me in the first place from the second she came to the table.
I wanted to call the corporate office but decided against it..
That is something I can not stand. They are hiring you. Because they need workers. Yes at the same time you might need a job. But you are just as important.
If they are unprofessional and already show poor management I dont want to work there. I doubt it will be any better when you're working there.
Ugh so rude.
Sorry for the rant.
Just needed to get that out haha
jclove
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What is stopping me?

I have found that when ever I try to do something that I really want to do I always fail.
I give up so easily on anything that is hard.
Right now the biggest thing I have been struggling with is working out.
I want SO BADLY to be fit and healthy.
I am pretty healthy and my weight isn't bad at all I just have a bit of fat around my body that I dont want there anymore.
I want to be healthy when I start to get older and be able to do things I love to do. I want to start now and have a healthy life.
But I get in my own way. I make excuses. I just give up and stop trying after awhile.
I am very happy when I'm done working out and proud of myself but getting myself to do it some days is hard.
I need to stop being such a baby. I want this so bad and I'm tired of myself getting in my way.
I'm done. I need to make a change. Now or I will never be able to make myself happy.
If you have any tips I'd love to hear what you have to say. I need help!!
jclove
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Im tired of caring

I hate caring about what people think.
My whole life and through out school all the things that I was and wanted to be wasn't "cool".
For example:
Being smart isn't cool. People make fun of you for being smart. And every one would joke about how they didn't study and how they dont care. It is backwards.
Being skinny and fit isn't cool. My whole life I was really skinny and wanted to be fit and people would say I was anorexic or bulimic and be rude to me when I wanted to be fit. And girls with curves and "meat" are more attractive. And being skinny like a skeleton is disgusting.
I cared so much about what people thought I changed myself.  I stopped trying in school because I was tired of being made fun of. I tried and tried to gain weight until I succeeded because I was tired of being called anorexic. I hated what I had become. I wasn't me anymore.
I struggle with this all of the time. Being scared to say what I think because I think someone won't like it. I dont want to work out and be healthy because I'm scared of what people will say. I'm tired of it.
Im trying now to not care or even think about what people might say or think. It only matters what I think and want. If it makes me happy I will do it. I want to speak my mind and do what I love.
I'm tired of being scared.
I'm done changing myself.
I just want to be me.
Let me know if you struggle with this as well and what helps you get through it. Maybe we can try together to be ourselves and not change for anyone else.
jclove
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